Thinking in corners...

So...

A hectic few weeks come to a close with what looks like is gonna be a few more weeks of the same. had our house warming in a crazy mix mash of drink,hugs,fights,shouting,crying and love. Our home feels a lot more like a home now than it did when we moved in. I'm still loving it. loving it enough for it to wipe out any shit that goes down in work on a daily basis. too much melrose place crap going on. i have definitely fully out grown any feeling of challenge that it has to offer and am really gonna need to see some light at the end of this tunnel soon.

however... i am very excited these days. i have the feeling of looking forward to a holiday or something similar.only thing being i dont know what im excited about. i think its excitement for what could come out over the next few months. haven't got the slightest idea what that might be but i feel very positive about it. something big is gonna come to light.

i feel it....

i miss my brother.

where i end and you begin...

so here i am... in my new place 2 weeks. i've only got around to writing this now cause its been hectic. back in work which is soul destroying but wiped out everyday as soon as i set foot back in MY apartment. i also write this with a few beers on me so bear with me.

i can't describe how happy i am right now. im surrounded by complete and utter love. i have the greatest people that have ever walked the planet surrounding me. so many of em. there is a feeling in my belly ive never felt before and never thought i deserved. in my mind right now i am the luckiest person on the planet. i have just started a journey that will take me beyond everything that i know. me and daire will live it up this year and go through all of the emotions we expect and dont expect and then it seems we will be broadening our horizons again and taking on some travelling. even typing that sends shivers up my spine. i CANNOT wait. there are people i wanna see and things i need to learn. i am as close to complete peace (pax) as i've ever been. 

my story gets better...

you win some you lose some...

what a christmas.what a new year. what a session! 

i finally got to be fully part of the christmas run as ive spent so much time before working through it and being too tired to move!im in a world of trouble right now.i dont get many hangovers but the ones i get are usually bad ones. this is a bad one! i was out for wezo's birthday and it was a quality night! great mix of people enjoying life! now that that is over its back to a very harsh reality.....work! back to work in the games industry! which sounds good except im part of the retail end of it which is crap!im back working with some old friends though so its not so bad.

what is really getting me through this though is the fact that i now have my own place with the daire fella! this place has all the potentials of being a bubble of creativity! ill spend all my days looking forward to going home and just shooting the shit! there will be a structure to what we do. a list of possibilities if you will...

Gaming

Internetting

Photographing

Arting

Farting 

Laughing

Drinking

Eating

LIVING!!!!!!!

im looking forward to having people stay and having bbq's in the summer and having the banter!im gonna miss me brother something fierce though as i dont like being far from him but im thinking he'll be spending a good bit of time in the place.

Bangers and Mash is kicking off......

A new beginning...

ok ok ok ok hi...

This is a new experience for me as i've never done a blog before that was just based on my own thoughts or whatever but i hear its a good way of releasing some stuff so i will give it a try. im not even sure if i'd find my own thoughts interesting if i were reading from the outside but i'm gonna put them here anyway.

its 2009! a new year and i must admit after the year i have just had i am feeling suprisingly optimistic.i have learned more about myself in the last year than i ever thought possible and i didnt really like everything i learned. i let myself down in many ways but it seems when you find funny sayings in funny places.... "why do we fall down?.. so we can learn to pick ourselves back up." i'd love to tell you that came from somewhere like the side of a mountain or a monk i bumped into or something but i heard it on "batman begins". but my god did it make sense! great work alfred! i have a truly exciting year to look forward to.i'm moving into a creative bubble with my buddy daire who inspires me in ways he'll never understand and come this time next year we will be ready to journey ourselves once again. who knows where and who cares. the thirst for immersing ourselves in another culture is well and truly embedded in us and he'll always have my back as i will him. id give people like him everything i had. all of my worldly possessions.

i let some old friends down in the past year and thought i had lost them forever but they have made me weak in the knees with the love they show for me. they accept me for all my flaws and dont judge me on them. people like that are hard to find and i will never take them for granted again.i ran away from what i felt i was becoming and that was the best decision ive ever made. i met people while travelling that opened me up spiritually.i am forever in debt to them and they have no idea how good they are. i hope they get everything they wish for.i also met the kind of person you only meet when you least expect it.she is easily the most beautiful person ive ever met and she has the most intense affect on me. im completely infatuated.

so ive a lot to look forward to this year and i will accept it all with open arms...

wasn't so hard i suppose...